feeling alone

i feel tat tis sch doesn't belong to me and i dun exist in it.
i had lost interest frm going to sch and really dun wich to go anymore.
i wish tat i cn juz do self study at home as i'm used to being alone.
at home i hav more peace and i won't get hurt.1 thing i'm afraid of home is
Family WAR!!!i think my life is fated to be like tis...

hurted

now i'm nt consided as part of the clique anymore.i know the 3 of them disliked me.and i guess it's becoz everytime after sch i didn't hang out wit them.
i always felt leftout when i'm wit them and i dun wan to be hurt so badly tat's y i decided to be like tis.now i won't didn't talk to the 3 of them as i know they disliked me and they r nt my true friends.
i dun really mind if they disliked me bt i hate it when they keep gossiping and critising about me.i know u dun like me bt juz SHUT UP!!!bt i'm neutral wit the guys and i cn c tat they r trying to influnece them to stay away frm me.
i felt so lonely during geog class coz i'm sitting alone.i'm really hurted and i felt so exhausted.hw i wish i could put an end to to all tis.

Parents meeting session

sian today my sis going to sch wit me to collect my report book...we reached sch at about 2.50 and waited for about 15-20mins.i damn sway i kana mrs cyndi tan.when she as kme whether my "MUM" speaks chinese or english i started laughing.then my sis sabo me go tell her tat she's my sis.then cyndi tan ask wat time my dad come bak frm work.i was hoping in mind tat she's nt going to call my dad.bt who knows she said she will try to call my dad sianzzz...bt i dunno whether she gt call a nt lah.when i saw my report book i felt so stressed by my results i expect better.i'm nt sure is it my expectation for myself is too high or i cn't concentrate on my studies.on tis night,i was laying on my bed and staring into spaces.nevertheless,my tears juz rolled down frm my eyes.and i'm feeling quite upset about my friendships too.haizzzz

Leftout

she didn't talk to me much today.i think our friendship is fading away.ytd was even worst,we didn't talk to each other not even a "hi".when i reached sch today,she said "hi" to me.i think she juz dun wan to lost a frend.after sch,i gt nowhere to go so i followed her and 4 other boys for lunch at Queensway.when we board the bus to queensway,she dun wan to sit wit me so she seat beside 1 boy.when we at wueensway,she gt no choice bt to seat beside me.she took the tissue frm my frend who is sitting at the extrem left instead of taking frm me.she keep talking to the boys and left me out which i felt very hurt.when at IKEA,she keep talking and playing wit the boys and forget about me.i only talk to the boys bt nt her.i really dun wan us to behave in tis way.i'm sick of it and i dun wan to feel it tis way!!!i wan to know y she treated me tis way